Just Writing :)

So I literally have not blogged or done much writing at all in months and as a writer it has really been driving me crazy. It could be due to my own lazy habits mixed up with the crazy semester I just finished and my struggle to find balance through it all. If I have learned one thing this semester it would truly have to be that life is too short and relationships(even though they require time and effort) are of VITAL importance. I really think that some time off is really helping me get back in the swing of things. I will have the change to re-organize things around the apartment, spend some much needed time with friends and family from near and far, and begin working to improve my writing skills. About a week ago I started on my first short story that I actually plan on completing in a timely manner. I will be based on adventures in a minivan from this past summer and partially from this past semester all put together into a comical and sarcastic package. I am not too far into my work yet but once I finish it the one and only copy will be given to my adopted mother, the one whom the story is dedicated to. I feel like that story, unlike blogging, will be much easier to progressively write. For some reason I just freeze up when I blog. Maybe because I feel like I have to be so formal? Or perhaps it could be that I just lock up out of fear? Anyway, I am going to challenge myself to blog more often next semester so I can finally get over the fear of showing others my work and begin to progress towards a new level of writing.
I guess I will begin with a few exercises so here we go...

Each year I hear the media and just about everyone around me chattering about New Year's resolutions. I myself have never really given them much though...if anything they were never clever or well thought out and basically were broken a week after the first of the year. This year however has really brought me to a point that I want to move towards the direction of change. I figure if I put them down here that I will be forced to read them and it can give me a sense of dedication to my new resolutions.

1. To have a clean living environment. My apartment...and even my car...tend to get really messy when my life gets really busy. I know that I am not the neatest person in the world but I really have misplaced some very important things this semester. I have also ruined things that were very important to me so perhaps having a clean living environment will greatly help decrease some of the stress of daily life.
2. Getting things done ON time. I have always always waited until the last minute to do things. I am not agreeing to completely stop this habit but I need to be serious about school. I am about a year and a half away from grad school and grades are the top determiner. My hard work payed off this semester and I really hope to continue the same.
3.To become a better friend, and especially a better adopted daughter. This past semseter
I truly got so consumed in just having a full day schedule that I completely missed out of a few months of my life. I truly started to notice this when my closest relationships seemed to become more distant. I hope that with this new year approaching that I will be able to prioritize and begin to focus on the most important things in life. After all...I only have 1.5 years in Abilene and I need to be spending it in the best way I possibly can.


Well...I am getting tired and I am just about to pass out so I will continue blogging in a day or so!

A Wise Investment

It seems like the "world as we know it" and the so-called "life-investments" known as the economy are far from the norm. College students left and right are being forced to put their investments in higher education to a screaming halt. Banks are being forced to deny students of loans they once depended on, whether bankers are suffering from an ill case of greed or being forced to do so the truth may never be unleashed. It's almost like the world has made a huge investment that is now leaving it up you know what creek and guess what? Right, NO PADDLE! That is of course, if the investment it in this gross economy that has built up since the day it began...whenever that was. For the longest time...ok maybe like the past year and a half...I have lived with the intentions of relying and investing my future in finances to THIS economy? What was I thinking? I have been thinking(scary idea, I know!) and I mean thinking a whole lot about what am I really here for? I am spending thousands of dollars and then only to go out and continue to invest in an economy that has already proven itself full of flaw? I am 8 weeks away from being two years into my degree as an English major...whatever that means. Obviously I am not deemed English Education so a teaching degree is not there, nor will it ever be. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the literature and writing but if I'm not teaching then what exactly would I be doing? I am in several classes where I basically analyze works of literature all semester and to be honest I just flat out do not enjoy it. I have thought about this quite often over the past few weeks and I have really been thinking about how AWESOME the ministry life would be. I know I have always said I wanted to live the fabulous life someday but honestly I need to face the fact that all this flashy stuff is never going to make me truly happy, ever.

Over the break I went to visit some really amazing people. Previous to my journey Aledo to visit them I was looking at their pictures from Haiti when it hit me, THIS was the fullness in life I was looking for. I have never been to this country but just looking at the pictures and seeing the passion in them made me want to go. I have really been thinking a lot and praying about it and I feel that if it is possible, I would like to go with them to Week Extreme Haiti next February. It will be a work in progress but I know with God and a will there WILL be a way.
I am looking for my wise investment, and I know that is a fine place to start.

It's time I started investing in God's economy, it's flawless

Anywho, I really need to get back to cleaning and other engagements with school.

If you get the chance you really should check out part 1 & 2 of this video by Rob Bell. It realy goes along with what I have been thinking about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krh1Y_Vwl2o

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgeYn0t0gRc&feature=PlayList&p=C77F2DD37297D76A&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=19